at the moment
i realize
that i am not
the only one

do i pretend
not to know
and try to win
you back
from where
i did not know
you had gone to

do i scream
with the anger
that shakes me
so hard
that i cannot see
or stand straight

do i sigh
in relief          
that my imagination
was not overactive
or
do i cry
in defeat
that my imagination
was accurate

do i question
those sentiments
that seemed so real
draw a line
where you stopped
meaning it

do i let go
because
absence
is not supposed to
make you grow fonder
of someone else         
 
i will not win
either way
for i have
already
lost
you

543. 5/5